Hey everyone! Today's post gonna be about my life and how frustrated I am with it. I'm Asian and my parents believe that boys get more privileges than girls. So being a girl I'm not allowed to do anything my brother does such as sleep overs. My mom doesn't believe it is lady-like to go and sleep at someone's house. But she says nothing to my brother who is still in high school and goes to sleep overs with his friends. My mom stopped me from going to sleep overs after 6th grade. My mom also believes age doesn't matter for freedom. I'm 20 and my mom still keeps me on a leash. I do see my boyfriend on campus everyday but we don't get our privacy due to his roommate not giving us any. So when his roommate leaves for the weekend, we would have our time together. The problem is that my mom is so controlling to the point where she won't even let me see him on the weekends. By the way I'm a commuter so I drive to and from campus. My parents don't understand what privacy is or what having a boyfriend is because neither of them had relationships like I did. In my opinion, I think they were just lonely people who couldn't get dates or weren't interested in their younger days. I believe dating other people and having break ups is a life lesson. It also helps you figure out what types of people appeal to you. (I think it helps for marriage).
My mom has been keeping me on a leash for as long as I can remember. There are some other things I want to get out. When I was in elementary and middle school I was a bit chubby for my age. As soon as I got to 7th grade my mom told me I couldn't wear skirts or dresses anymore just because my booty was getting a little too big. So from then on, I wasn't allowed to wear those types of clothes. I'm in college now and I have lost some weight compared to my high school days. But I'm still not as slim as my mom would like for me to be to wear skirts/dresses. Its like she wants me to feel even more self conscious of myself to have a pancake booty. She only allows me to wear bodycon skirts because it fits to my figure. I've always wanted to wear breezy summer skirts or dresses but she says it will accentuate my slightly chubby figure. I'm still self-conscious about my body even though I am smaller than I was in high school.
Back to my age. I'm 20 years old, 3rd year in college and you'd think I'd have freedom by now. I still have a 9 to 9:30 pm curfew which I think is utterly ridiculous. I have a friend who's mom is a cop and she still didn't really have a set curfew. For my mom, I think the age 20 means age 15. I really can't wait to get out of this house. But I don't have a job or money to live on my own. So I'm stuck here for a few years. I have never wanted to move out so much. My parents really frustrate me, especially my mom despite our good mother-daughter relationship.
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